The Rebbe’s granddaughter was once stricken with smallpox.²⁹⁷ #9. This took place after Shavuot 5565/1805, at the same time as the Rebbe revealed the Ten Psalms and gave his manuscript of Likutey Moharan to be bound (see note 327). This is most probably the revelation that he speaks of here as being responsible for the child's illness. It was also shortly after the birth of his son, Shlomo Ephraim, and his journey to Sharograd. The lesson revealed that Shavuot (Likutey Moharan I, 56) brings many of these concepts together. It speaks of long life and making hidden mysteries into lessons (3). It also speaks of doctors and of sicknesses involving body fluids, such as smallpox (9). I was with the Rebbe, and he spoke to me of the great anguish that this caused him.

footnotes: ²⁹⁷ See Yemey Moharnat

He then spoke of how God’s ways cannot be understood. One of the holy Ari’s sons once died. The Ari said that he had died because of a secret teaching that the Ari had revealed to Rabbi Chaim Vital.²⁹⁸ (III, 249b). The Ari demurred, saying that the Zohar's author himself said that one should not ask about this (ibid., III, 52b). The next week, the Ari's son, Moshe, passed away. A while later, Rabbi Chaim asked the Ari to explain the meaning of another secret passing in the Zohar (Tosefta, 3:55b). Again the Ari demurred, but gave in at Rabbi Chaim's urging. Soon after this, the Ari said that he too would pass away for revealing this secret (Shevachey HaAri [Warsaw, 1875], p. 11b f.).

footnotes: ²⁹⁸ Rabbi Chaim Vital (1543-1620) was the foremost disciple of the Ari and was responsible for recording most of his master's teachings. Rabbi Chaim had asked the Ari to explain the secret of the Gazelle mentioned in the Zohar

The Ari actually had no other choice. Rabbi Chaim had pressed him greatly and the Ari was therefore compelled to reveal the secret. He himself had said that the only reason he was born into this world was to rectify Rabbi Chaim Vital’s soul.²⁹⁹, 3a. He was therefore compelled from on high to reveal this mystery at Rabbi Chaim’s request. Although he was compelled, the Ari was still punished for doing so. These are the ways of God that cannot possibly be grasped by human intellect.³⁰⁰ I, 56, mentioned above. It was part of a longer discussion involving many things that cannot be understood (Tzaddik #150).

footnotes: ²⁹⁹ Ibid. ³⁰⁰ This is also alluded to at the end of the lesson in Likutey Moharan

From what the Rebbe said, we could understand that this was also true of him. Both he and his children had suffered greatly, and this all happened because he was involved in bringing us closer to God.

God certainly desired this and the Rebbe had no other choice. It is written, “He thinks thoughts so that the outcast not be banished from him” (II Samuel 14:14). God wanted the Rebbe to bring the “outcasts” back to Him. Still, the Rebbe had to suffer because of this. This is God’s incomprehensible way.

The Rebbe continued to speak of the great suffering he experienced because of his grandchild’s illness. He said, “I would prefer that I myself be stricken instead of the child.

“I can feel each one of the child’s groans deep in my heart.

“But this is for my benefit. “A stranger may have an ill child and bring me a pidyon or ask that I pray for him. I will then be able to feel his suffering as much as I do now.

“When one of my followers leaves me, Heaven forbid, I have as much pain in my heart as I have at this time.”

The Rebbe then told me the story of a disciple who had recently left him. He said that he had suffered as much at that time as he did because of his grandchild.

One of the Rebbe’s followers later told me that the same thing happened after his baby son, Shlomo Ephraim, passed away.³⁰¹ I, 65 which speaks of the “Master of the Field.” This Master of the Field is the gardener of souls, often at the expense of his own life and the lives of his loved ones. The Rebbe also revealed the lesson in Likutey Moharan I, 262, which states that new teaching must result in tears. On 5 Av, the yahrtzeitof the Ari, this was again discussed (Yemey Moharnat #11; Tzaddik #48, #154, #157; Parparaot LeChokhmah #65; Avenehah Barzel, p. 30, #32). The Rebbe told his followers, “I am suffering because of you. The holy Ari was punished for revealing one secret mystery. How much more is this true of me, when I have revealed so many secrets like these.”

footnotes: ³⁰¹ The child died after Shavuot 5566/1806 at the age of fifteen months. Shavuot was on Friday and Shabbat, and on the next Thursday, after the child died, Reb Noson and R' Naftali were with the Rebbe. On Friday, the Rebbe revealed the lesson in Likutey Moharan